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Dear well-wisher friend,
This letter comes after much thought and heartache. I'm sure you remember yesterday's incident. The kids were playing together on the slide. Of course they are too old to slide the conventional way so they were inventing a host of games climbing up, sliding down, crashing into each other, creating a 'jam'. There was some amount of roughhousing but they were having fun.
After a while we heard a commotion and by the time we got there N was in tears while H stood looking guilty. Apparently as he pulled her down the slide he twisted her ankle. Worse, her dress climbed up embarrassing her and bringing out the tears.
Yes I felt her embarrassment every bit as acutely as she did herself. After all she gets it from me - this feeling of wanting to disappear from the face pf the earth at the slightest unfavourable attention. Given that some of it was witnessed by a bunch of boys and girls, must have felt terrible. I know the feeling. I've been there - many times over.
I took H aside, gave him a talking to and sent him home.
However, I seemed to have failed you in your expectation. According to you I should have meted out a harsher punishment. No, it wasn't enough that I speak to him later at home. I was too soft on him, you felt. He deserved a dressing down right there before his friends. He should have been embarrassed just as he had embarrassed N so that he would remember it the next time, you said.
I wholeheartedly agree H needs to be sensitive in the playground. I know he gets carried away in a crazy sort of way. I agree he needs to be punished. However I do not think shaming him in public is the way to do it. You may not agree of course, and that's your prerogative entirely.
While you remain my friend and have known the twins for some time I'd like to remind you that I do know them a little better than you. I know what H did wasn't done with the intention of embarrassing N while should I have done the same to him it would have been very much intentional, that, when I'm decades older than him and hopefully more sensible.
Also, you were not there to see that by the time we got home H had done both our beds, warmed the food, set the table and served us all dinner - his way of saying 'sorry'. I also know that he may err again. I know it might take him time to turn into the perfect gentleman that I hope he will become one day. I am prepared to wait.
Meanwhile I'm happy to inform you that the incident has done no permanent damage to N going by the way she was wrestling with H this morning.
Your comments hurt me terribly, even though I am convinced I did the right thing. Perhaps that is because, of late, I've been on extremely rocky parenting ground constantly analysing each step I take till somedays I feel I feel I'll go completely crazy. I'd truly appreciate if you keep your suggestions, however well-meaning, as I'm sure they are, to yourself.
Also, if you do have some serious advice, I'd love for you to say it to me directly, rather than saying it came from one of the kids because then I am more likely to take it seriously.
Thank you again for your concern.
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